Am I alright?

Well I get an email today, on a day I already know I need to blog, asking me if I'm okay... There is a long and short answer. The short answer is yes I'll live. The long answer is things have gotten so much worse. Last week I was on vacation, hope this explains my long time, no blog situation. He called me Thursday from work. He asked to speak to the kids and after they spoke to him he asked for me. This was rather unusual for him to do. He usually talks to me as little as possible. As soon as I ask him, as I have been lately, are you okay? He broke into tears and said no then immediately said he needed to call me back. I took the kids and my mom to a store that we were heading to anyway and asked her if she would take them inside for a bit just so I could see what was up. I called him back and left him a message telling him if he called me in the next few minutes that I would be alone to talk to him. He called me back immediately. He cried as he told me that this had all been a huge mistake and that he was not happy anymore. He said at first he thought he was happy but then realized that he loved me still. He said that she was fun at first and that he thought he loved her but that he became bored with her after the first month and then it was more about saving face by not coming back then. He said he would do anything to make things right. I told him that I did not feel we belonged together and that I wasn't really sure I ever made him happy either but that if she wasn't making him happy that I would help him through the breakup and that he would find someone right for him. He told me he planned to break up with her within a few days and hoped I could eventually forgive him for all the horrible things he had done. He said he had learned a lot about himself and that he was not the person he thought he was. He said he was someone awful and mean and that he didn't deserve another chance but that he would spend his life trying to fix that. I was doubtful about any of this but figured I'd give him a chance to fix things. Friday he called me from work saying he still felt the same. I did have doubts. I thought perhaps they had just had a fight or maybe she had left him but he insisted that no, he was just starting to see her for the person she really is. I told him if he was serious that he needed to do it soon and not string her along until he found someone new to hook up with like he did me. It's far more painful to the other person leave them for someone else rather than leaving them because things aren't working out. I know first hand. ack, I will write more later, this story is much longer but my son just called from the school. I need to take him to the doctor.