I saw red....

Okay so just when I think things are okay, I realize I am NOT okay. I do NOT want him back but just the thought of her, knowing that she takes pleasure in taunting me, and rubbing her relationship with the man that was MY husband in my face just makes me see red. I know I should not get so annoyed but the thought that she is anywhere near my children just really annoys the heck out of me. She completely disgusts me on so many levels. Can you tell I'm having a bad night? So I'll explain. He finally comes to get the kids and take them shopping for school clothes, great right? I thought well, he came alone, which he should and since he really only has a couple of hours surely he is just going to take them shopping alone, which the kids were all excited about. I later get a call from a friend of mine that saw them at the store. She knows the situation so she was pretty sure I wasn't there, so she walked up and said hi and asked the kids where was their mommy, they said at home. My friend said at this point the girl kinda acted like it bothered her. I told my friend that it probably did because she knows I don't like her, I don't even want her at any event that my kids have and such. She said why the hell would she come anyway, she should be embarassed for what she is doing. I agree. It completely is beyond me why any girl worth the time or consideration of would take pleasure in taunting someone about taking their husband and destroying a family. I know my soon to be ex is scum for seeking her out but the thing is, he doesn't seem to take as much pleasure in rubbing it in my face as she does. I will never be civil to her. I just can't. She is a vile wench. Sorry had to vent because it really bothers me that he couldn't even take them shopping without her. I should have known. He was mostly helpless like that when we were together too. The clothes they got were okay but honestly I couldn't even think about clothes after I knew she was picking them out. I just wanted everyone the hell out of my sight so I could scream. Oh and also he had wanted me to come meet him halfway. I refuse to even start doing that. The noncustodial parent is to make all arrangements to get the children for visitation. This will not inconvenience me in anyway. He chose to do this, so he can deal with those consequences. Besides I am relatively sure that if I ever did go meet him he would want to make it a regular thing and would eventually bring her, thinking that because it isn't on my property I can't say anything. So I will keep it like it is. Bring her and I will have her arrested for trespassing. I do not ever want to see her because honestly I'm not sure I'd be able to deal with that. I started back at the gym today. The kids are in school so I should be able to go. I need to work off some stress. I got him to sign papers today to remove him from banking accounts. He really didn't seem to want to, but so what? I do not want him having the option to go take money from my account whenever he may deem neccessary. Screw that! Anyway I will go now. Just needed to vent somewhere as I feel I'm holding it inside tonight. It feels good to just cry. Some days... I guess are just better than others. Today was not one of them.