Show me the money...

Such an annoying catch phrase but sometimes that's what life is. Today my ex's deposit went into my account. He sends his whole paycheck to my account because his previous bank account apparently went into the red. Well I did what he asked and transferred his money into his account at my bank. The problem is that they drew the money out for the late credit card from HIS account this time. It came out as a negative balance and then once I put the money in, of course, it wasn't what he expected to be there. I am sorry for this, but I only did as I was asked. I am glad they didn't pull it from me again. I can't afford anymore bills at this point. It's so fucked up. So last night I had paid the insurance for both of us. His share was of course deducted today, as agreed, before I transferred the money. He asked to have this back. I start school next week. I had to buy my books. I really cannot afford to do this for him and I told him I'd try to see what I could work out. He yelled at me before I even had a chance to look at things honestly. He has told me this same thing about paying me anything back the last few times. I can see how he figures this is an automatic no, because apparently that's how he meant it when he said it. So he goes off on me, telling me how little I care, he just had a baby, they're all going to starve. Honestly, he should still be okay. The amount he got should get him through, just barely but yes, still okay. He still had around $800 even with all that taken off! It's ridiculous actually but what did he expect? When you leave a family and take on another you make two households for you to support! In any event he made me feel like shit. I know he will deflect his anger at me at my kids tonight and upset their whole weekend :( I will send food with them definitely. I don't want them to be hungry and now that's all I can think about. I'm so dumb for letting what he said affect me at all. I should go to the store now. Oh his last words to me, "Enjoy Paris on the money that should be for the kids, while we're here starving" I said, "Okay." just so you guys know, Paris plane ticket was paid for by lottery winnings. I am not paying for my trip with money for supporting my kids. He's so bitter. I didn't hear him sympathize at all when they took this money from me last time. Tomorrow, Tom comes home. I need him so much :(